I’ve never been the type of writer that imposes deadlines or mandates on how often I decide to put fingers to keyboard.
Part of being creative in nature is using different avenues to express my mind….and writing just hasn’t been the road I’ve chosen for a while. It’s not that I haven’t been active on other social medias, I have, but this space has sat in time out for quite a while.
At this point, I know more former bloggers than current and while I do miss their words…I understand their need to just let go.
I’m not there quite yet but I do feel like I’m in a place of transition.
I used to put words down freely to the wide open internet space in a mostly anonymous way. That feeling of writing in the shadows was a big draw for me.
And then there is just continued life blockades.
As I become more connected with people in my community, the more guarded I feel about my words and the implications of them. This last year I’ve felt my words creating a wall from the inside. Not letting the words out. This likely stems from keeping people at an arms length…..it’s a coping mechanism from my childhood that lives on.
I want to share about parenting a really strong and stubborn headed child (looks at mirror) or the transition of my older son (who initiated my online writing 8 years ago) into high school.
High school. Sigh.
As my children grow, there is also a need to protect them as their own people without their mom constantly posting stories and pictures of them.
I want to talk about having a thyroid disease that took out my brain for 6 months last year. Spoiler: I’m not one who does well working on 60% brain function.
I want to talk about how I’m becoming more involved with politics and there’s been quite the learning curve to all things government for me….but I’m getting there.
I want to talk about smaller and more frivolous life impacts like social engineering, a new house remodeling project, and how rabbits in my garden still piss me off.
I’m not sure why today was the day I decided to put more than a sentence together. That’s the way creativity works. You never when the creativity train decides to go.
I’m less concerned with how often I post but I am working on removing the self imposed censorship….maybe this is the start.